which better?living as the life one or the dead one?

Sometimes in life there are many challenges to face...whether u like it or not...Some can bring many benefit , knowledge and good memory but some is seriously hurtful..it depend to the person how to view it...either he/she view it as an opportunities to change and learn something new or some people who cannot with stand this situation, take it as a simple minded person.
Some tend 2 choose the most convenient way to solve the problem..tat is S.U.I.C.I.D.E.. I had 2 admit it, that is the most convenient, inexpensive way...Almost 70% of peoples think of suicide this day.. it can happen in a blink of eyes..The reason can be as simple as break up with the BF or the GF..(such a cheap way 2 take one life..x worthed) and some can be as complex as family matter or work related such as the case of (well,..the one..hhmmm...think sndri k)
Me myself also not excluded in attempt of suicide...coz i also an ordinary human being..and sometime when i not in the sane state of mind i tend to think negetively...but in the end, i snap up and say "it is worthed?"
As i mention, which is much better?living as the life one or the lifeless one? Its up 2 u 2 choose. Yes, living as the life one has a lot of responsibility, stress from work, family, relation and all, and worry about money, bills and tons of stuffs..that is y sometime people who cannot handle it all take their lives away. ..cause the level of stress they carrying on their shoulder...
while living as the dead,,,hhmmm...all the worries sure is vanish already....but, are we really sure??? As we all know. every human beings that alive will face death, and every people who face death sure will head straight to H.E.L.L....betul..x tipu...our 1st stop will be hell...in there will be judge and all the thing that we do, did, all...thing that we did when we stay in the form of human and stay in H.U.M.A.N W.O.R.L.D will be judge here (after life)...
Well, its up 2 is to think and how 2 coordinate our life...for better or for the worst.. Think that either your action is worthed or not...what will you loss and what will you gain in life...If u cut short you life (not as planned by ALLAH) that as ALLAH had set a better plan for u...juz because some obsticle that DIA bagi, a small challenge to test either u worth it or not....but u cannot withstand it..and that the end of u...
Same as the story of a frog who look 4 a well in a dry day...the frog had dig far far far into the earth, but at the end, when the frog hit a rock, it stop diggimg and give up..whereby, if the frog dig away the rock, it can find fresh water under the stone~

Treasure,cherrish, Pampared and b greatful

5th March a date that is meaningful for me...that day me n all my PD classmate, we went to Rumah Anak Yatim Tambunan. the place there is totally different..there i cannot feel the feeling of warmest of a family. The place is so cool... the kids is neglected. We can see that, when we arrive the kids are happy... some of the kids hunger for attention and feel attach with us.. There's 1 of this lil boy..he from pre-school,. for a pre-school kid, he look very small and fragile..The name is Hafiz..He tag along with me..wherever i go, he follow...somehow it make me so sad with the picture.

The most shocking moment is when we having our lunch. One of the kid from my group doesnt have her plate..end up, she told us she skip lunch..juz 4 that simple reason...the next sesssion 2 eat is in the everning...for crying out loud, hw can a child survived that??? sometimes i really cant understand it but if that the way the ophanage teach the kids to be indepedent and dicipline...im speechless..

Other than that, we always prefer the secret recipies or any fancy cakes right??? the kids there, when they saw all the cakes the foods they go crazy...some even grab the cake handful..with all the cream..They grab the food like it will gone..juz like they in a war~~pity nie see how different the kids there and the kids in the urban city..

The smile and the sincere from the bottom of the heart say "thank U" really take us off guard... the kids really appreciate what we bring and give them..

At the end we all go back 2 with joy and happiniess by knowing that we bring joy and hope 2 some elses heart... they touched our heart and so do we~

Change for the good or for the worst~

We know how people change right....as time pass by, we all grow up and have our own life and we tend to change in matter to fit in the society and fit in the work environment...but the transformation either for the good or for the worst...depends.. but what make a changes worst is how u change and U 4get about ure fends.
This happen rcently, as recent as yesterday..Yeah have 2 admit he have the potential 2 fly high but he doesnt have to skills to land beautifully...he possibly will crash during his landing...This is the type of person who change for the worst..he not only forget about his fends from the university...Friend that spend more then 3 year together...be there 4 his for the worst time and no forgetting during his hangover..well..make it more piss is he x even graduate and yet he diss off his fend who did not bring any benefit 2 him???? Is this what we say transformation and changes....if that the case, in matter to fit in his high classs society, this type of fend is x worthed..this is the type that when he wated ure help he will beg u but when he/she get what they after..they will kick u off juz like rubbish... D.A.*.M U... trust me, 1 day when u hit bottom rock, the person that will stand by u is us, the true fend..x the plastic vase fends~

Why???y must U come back???

It been 3 month i din c ure face and hear ure voice..and but yet today u come out of the blue just beause of the sight of my car..Y??? Y must u do tat??? Im in process 4getting u...getting u out of my mind n my heart..and yet... there u are, U with ure smile that i love the most n ure tender genture...GoD!!!!!!!!


Why is that everytime i about to forget about u and there u are..coming back in my life???? u say u x feeling 4 me...but y u treat me like im special in ure heart??? If u dont love me why u will blush with my sweet words??? so obvious that even ure ears will turn red... Y must u jealous when the man ask me out 4 a movie...Y???? U know how much i love u, n u know how much im tolarate 2 u...u ask me 2 give u time..i willing 2...that because i doesnt want 2 lock u up like a beautiful and talented phoenix in a golden cage..u mean to be free..meant to fly high..that because me myself alsso doesnt think of commitement yet...i do wanna get married and have my own family but just not now...


I want u 2 fly high...spread ure wings and fly~~~go do things that you wanna do..achieve thing that you dream of...go...but just 1 thing that i ask..just remeber that back in the origin point there will be me..i will be waiting for you...my love for u will never died and the fire of love will keep on burning..that is how deeply in love i am to u...just remeber come back 2 me my LuV~~

Obsession?? Old LoVe never die??

Do u felt that its hard to forget a L.O.V.E?? No matter it was 1st love or puppy love or any kind of love...for me yes..its not like 1st,coz i havent have 1st love yet...ehehhe...its more like..for me, it more and kinda like crush...oneside love ( cinta tepuk sebelah tangan)..it more like admire type...well...u can ask any male n female who are in raging hormon, young blood teenage, who never had crush/admire..if he or she say no, thats totally impossible..*he/she might heve bad memories with admiring and love* *giggling*


In my case...this just to share and so so...



Well,i know him since~~~3 yrs ago if i x not mistaken...he well..for me his like a star.. one tiny tinny winny star....b4 his a huge star..he just an ordinary man that people will not bother to lay an eye to..seriously...x joke..but after that, he fell in love with a high maintenance girl..so, he groom himself up, clean cut, designer cloth, parfume, facial n all the thing to do in matter to attract the girl attention...but....(T_T) me who stand near to him...he never every notice my exist there...but still im there for him..i supported him...i play cool when im with him...sound stupid n hillarious right...U must be asking "why could there be someone in the world that will do that although she knew her love will not be notice and appreciate by the man..."



Hhhmmm...well...thats how stupid am i...if you ask if i ever regrat that i fall in love with him..i will say not...up until today i still love him very dearly...although i hold 2 my own ego..saying that i will not love him anymore but every1 that know me knew that im lying and it was impossible for me to do so...although u hold me in your arms...i felt the touch and but yet..there's barrier..... A barrier that i put up myself..the barrier that killing me....it just like the barrier that i put up in matter to defense myself from u is winggling trembeling because of ure tender touch..I can go insane but still i keep and make myself in a sane condition..that because rationally i know u n me is impossible...not in a trillion light year..never...


Right now the scar are still deep but still its healing..although sometime it hurt and the scar is spliting up but eventually as time pass i think i will slowly forget you...i will learn to let you go...although it hurt but thats parts of growing up...bitter, sweet in life...


Now???? how am i doing?? Im hanging there...time 2 time i still met him but im holding it up...Wish me more luck in my love!!!! CuPiD~~cupid come 2 me..hehehehhe

OMG!!!

OMG!!! i so mad with myself...Y cant i wipe u off my mind juz like i wipe a dirt off my hand??? Y im so attach 2 u..i wanna b thru with u...i doesnt want 2 be related to u...i kept think Y im so loyal 2 y..y cant i shake u off...i ought that i will never fall for u..i got x idea..Y?? Hah~~Such a torn in my heart~~~