CONFESSION OF A BROKEN HEART

You are the one that take my breath away 2 year ago,

Your smile is a killer smile,

The sweetest smile that I had ever seen,

Your attitude is far beyond other guys,

Your gentle words stung me by my heart,

But still your not mine,

Both our world are far too different,

U cant neglect urs n I cant abandon mine.

Both of us are too ego…

But far deep in my heart there you’ll always be…

No matter how I change or where I go u will always be in my heart….

Even thought u n I far apart but my heart will always have ur image in it…

I care and love for you…

Please....

I can’t find a reason to let go,

I can’t find a reason to hang on,

What when wrong can be ok,

If only u came back 2 me.

Sometimes I wake up crying at night,

Sometimes I scream out your name,

What right she had to take your heart away,

When for so long u were mine?

Please tell me she not real,

Please tell me that u coming home tonight,

Back into my arms,

Please coz im falling apart.

Please take the tears away,

Brings back the happiness in me,

Back to when u n I both were deeply in love,

Ease away the wound in my heart.

Yuen Fen (Destiny)

Well I kinda like the word Yuen Fen coz this stuff is weird...N I do agree that blood is thicker than water…no matter how the sibling’s fight they will still end up be together. But hye it was different when couples fights…That will be days 2 settle but siblings no…Only few minute or even second to cool down the temper…Im sure that most of u doesn’t know how hard a yuen fen can be right?? Well I readed in the ancient mythology books and face and hand reading books and it said “One can only be father and son after 7 life cycle and fulfill all their promises from life before”, “a siblings can only be together again after 8 cycle of life, “husband and wife can only be together again if only they are distant 2 be together and few can only met after 7 cycle of life:.

Even when I had a fight with my sibling it only last few minute and then I will be ok…. Same 2 my best gurl fend, when she had a fight with her sis…what make it even worst, she pull off a hand full of her sis hair…god...after rebonding lg 2…hahha...yah they fought but still they love each other and there no one can change their for each other…Same with my siblings…now that all of us are far apart we still argue on handphone via sms and even call juz to hear her voice…ya sumtimes I can be annoy but trust me…it heal the lost in my heart…( Right SAA5418..hahahha…)

Even siblings, parent are far apart but the relationship will always be there...u cant c it , u can touch it but it is there…There right inside u’re heart…Love them b4 it gone..gone forever and unplaceable…

Does true love really exist?

The term of true love or love one really exist in this world? Our very own world? Is the love of Romeo and Juliet really does exist? It is true that one can give up their own life for the other??

For me it’s all just rubbish...No one will give up their life for other. Trust me… If there a battle the 1^st thing that comes in mind is save your own life…no time of saving other or sacrifices yourself. All that can only happen in a movie…

Vows of “till death do us a part”…can it still be trust in this modern society?? Some said yes and some no…me myself...NO…till debt do us a part yes but no till death do us a part…Most marriage couple surely will argue about the bill and all the debts…and then, when no more solutions, here comes the word if nightmare “divorce”…Some think that divorce is the last choice that they can think of but who will hurt the most? The wife? The husband? Nope not either of them but one that stuck in the middle (the child)…Once that made out from and with the seeds of happiness… They suffer the most…the suffer separation, argument, fights, and rights…. And because of all that some face break down and some choose to run away and the worst suicide…

Its make me wonder how can you stop loving each other?? How can the love fade away?? It is because you bored of each other or leak of trust?? Any tinny winy thing can be the reason of separation of once known as the happiest couple…

Think bout it before step into the ails… It’s no easy to raise a family…

Fragile Life

Does u think our life is very fragile and priceless?

At this minute we were talking and laughing and the next puff...DEAD...

Trust me it does...

Few weeks ago me and my younger sister was talking and laughing about our past time and my older sis’s ex bf...

Then my elder sis argues and asks my younger sis where his bf...

In a sad tone she told us that her bf had past away...

I thought she was laying but that’s the truth...

He died in a car crash...Day b4 my sis end her national service at sansui...

What make it much sadder is the guy always calls my sis and he made my sis happy. She treated my sis like a Queen. His own queen in his hand built palace. He pampered her so much.. Then without no reason he ask a break from my sis. The lame reason that he give is, so that the both of them got more time study and focus in education. Until today, I still do not believe he can let my sis go….

And ya, my instinct was right. One of his best friend called my sis using her ex hp no, he told my sis that the guy (her bf), until his last breath he still thinking bout my sis….He knew he was dying. He suffer from Hepatitis C. Finally everything is clear…He knew he is dying and think of how to minimize the sadness in my sis heart….Until the end of his life he still think of her… Weird?? But trust me… He think of her went he stuck in the crash…Very nice boy but destiny in the hand of our Creator…No one can change it and no one will be spear from it...

Same think happen 2day (17.7.08), and again it make me sad and think why life is so fragile? I call him R…Last Saturday his give birth to a baby girl... A baby girl… thinks that finally him going to get after a long time waiting. But one occasion that all should be happy turn out sour, mood and be a blackest history to R and his wife. What went wrong??? Here’s what happen, the fault is blame to the hospital, they didn’t do their job…They take long time to deliver the baby… end up the baby suffocated in the mother womb… WHAT THE HOSPITAL DOES… HUH...EZ… ALL OF THAT THEY JUST WALK AWAY…LIKE NOTHING HAPPEN…THEY JUZ SAID SORRY FOR U’RE LOST!!!!

Ask y didn’t sue them?? I did ask R, he said 2 me “ if I do that, can I get my baby back?” For God sake, unless u’re heart made out from steel u will know how it feels... But ya, by doing that can their baby, precious litter angel be brought back back alive...Back to her parents arm?? NEVER AGAIN...NEVER...THAT IS THE ONE THING THAT CAN’T NEVER BE DONE…No matter how long u pray, cry till no more tear to shear or even you cried blood. One child that you love the most can’t never be back…never… how can a mother stand that… One that cares the most, love most can hand the sadness??

If you think it’s cruel but that the truth… It does happen around u every minute everyday… Love, precious, pampered the one you love while there’s still chance for you too do so... Don’t wait till the time they are gone…I’ll be like no matter how far u search, or you search till the end of the world and still, u won’t found it… You can never find it again... Grab it and hold it tight in your arm so that they won’t “disappear”.

IS RED FOR LOVE?

Flower that bloom in summer day is as beautiful as the morning dew,

Ocean is calm as the ice,

Once promise to be with me eternality is a lie,

Turn out he is the one that hurt me the most.

Red is once the colour that I love the most,

It represents the forever love that I have,

Love that I wish and though will last eternal crumbled down,

Hope to be with you buried under the grave that you dag with your own hand.

Some said that love is full of sweetness,

Full of happiness and great memories,

But it is true?

You said that I’m the only one,

No one will replace me in your heart,

You make a promise that you will love me forever,

Promises that I think will be last forever.

But it seem I’m too naïve,

I’m naïve enough to believe in your beautiful lie,

My world fall apart when you stab me with your words,

Poison that you gave killed me instantly.

Red that once bloom in my heart because of love had fade away day by day,

Red is still in my heart but not because of love,

It was the color of blood,

Blood that bleeding within my heart.

My heart bleeds and cried,

But it’s ok,

I will stand up be strong and move on without you,

You will only be a good memories that once I had.

y simple life made difficult??

Y ordinary simple life can be so diffucult to get though??
Can it be easy??
Busy with study,works n much more..
Fuh..
Stress..