fix this...

How can this can be fix when u cannot appreciate me??

HELP...can u see it??

HeLp me~~
Can any1 hear me??
Can any1 c im hurt??
Y my tears can stop falling??
Wat the reason??
Who can tell me??
Worst of all,I cut myself..
That the only way it calm me down..
Least that I can do..do to make me stop crying 4 a while and endure the pain…

Y am I cryin’?
I got x idea why..
It is because of he??
Bcoz the stress and pressure in the studies??
The feeling in me is killing me..
The pain in my head wont go away…

I hurt myself once…
Then, I did it again…
Badge on my arm although it cover the scar but it can hide the sadness in my heart..
Y its I act like this..y?
It is simply coz like the pleasure of blood and pain??
Im not sure~~
Even me myself don’t know wat 2 say..

It BreAkS My Fragile HeaRT~~

It breaks my fragile heart every time i saw u.,every time i saw ure pic my heart full with hatred...what had happen 2 me?? when is the seeds of "hate" towards u planted deep in the lonely heart of mine? Its no that....im...why...even me myself cant explain why i behave such a way...

Am i eager for ure attention?No, fact i even avoiding u..im i falling for u??I ask my heart but theres no answer for it..even my heart cant tell me..if im falling for u?

1 thing for sure is that i dont want 2 break my heart by u again..its x worthed..u had never appreciate me b4..y must i be like this??i suppose 2 follow my heart but now,its all mess up..Its not that i will stop loving you but~~~

HyE SiSTeRS!!!!!

Y break ure heart???
why make ure world circle around the universe that u create ure self???
Wake Up sisters!!!! waKe Up!!
U dont have 2 circle ure world in his world??Ure air,ure sun,ure energy wasnt from them!!They are not the source,ok!!so wat??if every1,i mean every single persons can accept u 4 who u r,y cant him??!! Y he hurt u so badly whereby he is the one that claim love u the most?? The story had told long long long time ago,y cant u juz drop it!!y r u kept sprinkle salt n vinegar on my broken wound? Cant u C how badly hurt am i??Y cant u try 2 fit in my shoes?? Feel what i felt?? The words that u say,the look that u gave me, the so call "future" shatter me in thousand shread...why????Why cant u see it how hurt am i right now??? Im like frozen in a time jar where i try 2 wake up from this so call future~~Future that created by u,future that i used 2 see as a happy loving caring understanding secure future,but instead of that,it all turn dimmed~~Y walk in a dark n unsure future were by we cant even look at what are in front of u??Y cant u see me standing here,the 1 that wanna spend my whole life with u??Y must u look so far away,where as we can cherish every single sec we spend with each other?

Once the word "us" always, always lingers in our sweet talks but now it had changed..instead of us u use the word "you" and "me"..YOU n ME???Now it juz you! You! YOu! or juz Me! Me! ME! u claim i used the word "me..me...me", but for god sake,crying out loud,i nvr do that..i hold on 2 the memory n promises that u say, u say u will love me forever,no matter wat the consequences and wat hppn..u will still love me, satnd by me and appreciate me 4 who am i....

I shed in tears n sometimes i even trembling every time u pick on the healing heart. Every time we speaks my heart will miss a beat because i cant help it by thinking that when will u pick on the same old topic again.It hurts..it really do....

Others might and can judge me but x in a million years,it was u who did that 2 me..u are the LAST person that came on my mind..U r the 1 who suppose 2 hold my hand and walk this path 2gether..i see u as my friend,as my anchor, as "my rock", and most of all "my soulmate"...but instead u gave a feeling that its like im walking it all alone in this road with u..although u where there but then the hand that i cling on 2,is never near by..i try and try and try hard,try very hard to please u,but y cant u juz this once try 2 understand me? Juz this once. ..it is a hard request from me??