I hate..

I hate the way he smile..
I hate the way he talk..
I hate the most is i love him..
I fall 4 him but 4 sure there wont be and ending 4 me...
He x meant to be mine...
He once fall in love with a perfect girl but end up broke up with her...
X sure y..

X 1 knew that he caught my heart the 1st time i saw him..
The 1st day he in the class..
He x perfect nor good looking but still i falled 4 him..
It very obvious that he been mean toward me..
Compare to other he treat them gently and polite..
But when with me,harsh but x that harsh just his tones are much higher...
I do appreciate that he make me his friend and i ask nothing more than that...
He way too perfect to be mine and i don't think i was 4 him...
Lately i dream a lot about him but all the dream without ending...
I try so hard to forget my feeling to him,but day by day pass way,end up the feeling grew stronger and stronger each day....
I try to seek help and solution...
The solution that i found is self hyp myself and the other one is med...
I just wish the feeling wont and dont fade away coz i deeply in love with him...but at the same i...i....i...
I just wish i never knew you...If only.....

Spread my wings and fly...

Some might think that I was insane coz I wanted to try something difference in other people country...I don’t think that is a mistake…I wanted to go to Europe or Australia or even the State…Go there, earn more money and learn something new…Spread my wings and fly…Fly far and higher…High till there is no more space to fly…
Some think that it will be hard and difficult...My god, difficult of course but still can survive…
I can work as house keeper or a waiter in matter to generate my income… Difficulty course but because of the difficulty and failure make me grow up. Learn and be even stronger…The world out there is tough…Toughest then you think…X like playing Barbie dolls …easy…

But still I stuck here…Part 7…After part 7 I wish to go there but I cant…My wings are not strong enough to spread and fly…