Obsession?? Old LoVe never die??

Do u felt that its hard to forget a L.O.V.E?? No matter it was 1st love or puppy love or any kind of love...for me yes..its not like 1st,coz i havent have 1st love yet...ehehhe...its more like..for me, it more and kinda like crush...oneside love ( cinta tepuk sebelah tangan)..it more like admire type...well...u can ask any male n female who are in raging hormon, young blood teenage, who never had crush/admire..if he or she say no, thats totally impossible..*he/she might heve bad memories with admiring and love* *giggling*


In my case...this just to share and so so...



Well,i know him since~~~3 yrs ago if i x not mistaken...he well..for me his like a star.. one tiny tinny winny star....b4 his a huge star..he just an ordinary man that people will not bother to lay an eye to..seriously...x joke..but after that, he fell in love with a high maintenance girl..so, he groom himself up, clean cut, designer cloth, parfume, facial n all the thing to do in matter to attract the girl attention...but....(T_T) me who stand near to him...he never every notice my exist there...but still im there for him..i supported him...i play cool when im with him...sound stupid n hillarious right...U must be asking "why could there be someone in the world that will do that although she knew her love will not be notice and appreciate by the man..."



Hhhmmm...well...thats how stupid am i...if you ask if i ever regrat that i fall in love with him..i will say not...up until today i still love him very dearly...although i hold 2 my own ego..saying that i will not love him anymore but every1 that know me knew that im lying and it was impossible for me to do so...although u hold me in your arms...i felt the touch and but yet..there's barrier..... A barrier that i put up myself..the barrier that killing me....it just like the barrier that i put up in matter to defense myself from u is winggling trembeling because of ure tender touch..I can go insane but still i keep and make myself in a sane condition..that because rationally i know u n me is impossible...not in a trillion light year..never...


Right now the scar are still deep but still its healing..although sometime it hurt and the scar is spliting up but eventually as time pass i think i will slowly forget you...i will learn to let you go...although it hurt but thats parts of growing up...bitter, sweet in life...


Now???? how am i doing?? Im hanging there...time 2 time i still met him but im holding it up...Wish me more luck in my love!!!! CuPiD~~cupid come 2 me..hehehehhe